R A U D H A H;

2011-03-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

2011-03-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Today was awesome(: Went to jemputan then after that went for family gathering at A&A.

Simply awesome(:

I love my family!

2011-03-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

2011-03-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hey yo, Raudhah here(:

It has been decades since i last blog(: By the way,i've deleted my facebook account seh! So unexpected of me to do that, well im gonna create a new one like when i go ITE or Poly. Yeah,i graduate from WRS then i create new one. New fb = New Raudhah 8D

Anyway i really love him(: If ur asking me are we still attached the answer is undefined.

Why? All because of my temper(: So im sorry,im really gonna change this year.

The Japan Earthquake has truly make an impact in my life. I hope my Japan neighbours are doing okay); Heartbreaking leh.

2011-01-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

Can you hear my heartbeat? It beats for you.

2011-01-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

Today is 29 january 2011.

I and my boyfriend had a sorta cat fight, thats what i called it.

Funny but tense, scary and difficult.

Two difficult person, trying to solve a sticky situation. One,who dont know what wrong has he done, and the other, doesnt know how to talk it out.

These couple are very good at sarcasm,i think. Im good at it, right?

And both of them are very good fire starters, if u knw what i mean. Its okay,i know what i mean then everything is fine. (I cant believe im talking to myself... sheesh.)

Well i think the problem lies with the girl cause, she really... tak boleh tahan, i dont know how her bf tahan her for one freaking year seh.

Cause this girl, doesn't know how to talk about her feelings, and she claims that it's always wasting her time and her energy and shes lazy to talk it out.

And the other hand, the guy is too nice. Which is good actually but, bad girl doesn't want to hurt the nice guy xD

I MAKE MYSELF SOUND SO EVIL >:(

Anyway back to reality. What am i anyway?

Im just a sixteen year old girl trying to excel in her studies and at the same enjoy as much as possible.

Well let me tell u my dreams alright, my likely impossbile dream :

I wanna get straight Bs for a start at least.
I want money, so that i can buy what i want and buy stuffs for my boyfriend.
I want to be matured.
I want a car license at the age of 19 latest and own one at the age of 20-25
I want to cut my hair short and dye it in a colour that no one will dare to
Repent.

Yeah, that is my dreams, my aiyah! I dont know how to say lah, so hard to say ><

Time is short, i love my boyfriend a lot actually. Maybe my face always shows the "I dont love you" face but actually i really do love him.

And when i dont know what to say, i will spout nonsense and i will paisey myself which is very, embarassing u knw?

So today actually, i wasnt quite happy that he dont allow me to go jln2 by my own.

I kinda rebel. And refused to say anything. So it all started with meeeeee(:

The End.

Nature,

2011-01-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

Not being able to tell to others whats the problem, its just me.

Its very,very hard.

Sorry i cant.

I know you did all of that because you want me to focus on my N Level. I love you as equally as u do, but even my mother dont control me as much as u did.

Don't blame me if one day i hung up the phone on you, cause thats when i cant take you anymore.

THE FUCK.

I KNOW HOW TO MANAGE MY TIME. IM 15 AND 11 MONTHS OLD. WHATS THE MATTER WITH YOU? LET ME MANAGE MY TIME AND IF ANYTHING GOES WRONG, IT WILL BE MY FAULT.

SO MY FAULTS WONT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU. I DONT WANT YOU TO BE BLAME FOR ANYTHING. CAUSE WHATEVER HAPPENS, ALL THE PEOPLE WILL BLAME ME. NOT YOU. FUCK. FUCK IT.

I dont want to curse u,i try so hard not to...

Sorry..

I cuss all the time when im angry, but just one word. Fuck.

Thats all. Not more.

Just, Fuck.

The Fuck.

Whats my lesson?

2011-01-05T15:05:00.002+08:00

Unexpectedly, someone unexpected kinda complimented me in school just now.He says he didnt realize that i actually have beautiful eyes and face.I lol-ed anyway. *pukes*

Today school was fine.Mdm Rehana and Mrs Kok talked to us about N Level.

Well thats the topic for my year anyway, N Level here, N level there.

EMB3 here and there blah blah blah.

Yes im afraid.Im afraid of failing.Not able to get my grade 2's. My target is >12.

Very hard eh? I feel really very scared :l

I dont have much time. Im not 16 yet please, im still 15. Dont rush my age.

Crazy Love.

2011-01-04T16:54:00.003+08:00

His my first love,my first crush.

My first thought in every morning.

My first kiss,my first hug.

His always first in everything.

The first time he held hands with me,

he send butterflies flying.

He send butterflies flying in my stomach.

The first time he kisses my lips,

he sends electrical jolts running.

He send electrical jolts running through my veins.

THATS NUTS, YEAH.

HE IS NUTS.

OHMYGOD I MISS HIM SO MUCH.

I LOVE YOU!

2011.

2011-01-04T16:26:00.002+08:00

Im gonna blog for 20 minutes about my life in 2010 plus, about my thoughts.

2010

I dont know what happened to me.I fell in love.He woke up the woman in me.

I cant deny the fact that i am crazy about him,i love him so much that i will cry over small matters that he did that offended me. Without him knowing. Maybe he knows,maybe he doesn't.

Its my nature to bottle things up. I met a hundred different type of people.

The only thing i like about 2010 is having a good year with Baby(: He is probably the only reason why i am being who i am now. Im confused by my thoughts a lot, thats why i dont think too much.

Which is actually kinda bad. Cause when i think,i get stressed up. Thats when i cry cause i get a afraid. Which, sounds totally crazy.

Back to 2010, school wasnt good. I slacked the whole year. I admit. I didnt care. I set up high expectations for myself. Unrealistic expectations. But somehow, i dont believe in myself. Thats where im lacking. Sadly.

During the holidays, i worked as a mac donald worker, obviously. I learn one thing. All man are horny. It doesnt matter whether he is a nerd,a nice guy or a gentlemen. All man are horny.

And i learn that i get a lot of attraction from older guys, which is a danger. Cause older guys are hornier and dangerous-er. Besides the point, i learn to think open and wider. That doesnt sound right... I learn to interact and deal with problematic customers.

Well to sum it all up, 2010 was fine. Thanks to Muhamad Khairul Anwar Faiz.

I love him so dearly, i dont want to ever let hin go.

My deadly Thoughts.

Today was first day of school. Teachers talking about N Level, everything seems to be in a rush. Im choking. Even though its only first day of school. But the thought of it,chokes me.

They say N Level is easy, sure it is. But it cannot determine how well you can do for your O's. The best points you get for N Level to ensure you can graduate from secondary 5 with flying rainbows is 8 and below. So i thought, realistically. Can i?

If i cant,i cant go to ITE cause, he don't allow... So am i suppose to retake again? Im just, unsure.

Lack of confidence, i cant motivate myself. I cant take a challange.

My english sucks, my maths sucks, my combined humanities sucks, combined science sucks.

Almost everything sucks. Im just afraid.

I need to pass,i need to get at least 2 for each subject. I know its not realistic and very tough but... I have to... Life is just so hard, its starting to get hard already.

Im starting to get crazy, so i better stop and sleep.

My goals for 2011 :

Be myself
Be responsible
Get good grades

Why do i want to be myself? Cause i never am in school.

My dreams :

Get in poly, maybe NYP or Ngee An.
Mass Communication course/Business
Cut my hair like a rockstar and highlight or dye.
Get my car license, save money and get a car by 21 years old.
Be a counsellor/secretary. Depends.
God willing, marry Bie

2010-11-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

2010-11-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

Jeritan,

Seruan,

Tanggisan di hati.

Serpihan kaca beribu melekat di kaki.

Siapa sangka,

tiada sangka.

Fikirkanlah,kehidupan.

Bukan mimpi,kita hidup untuk sementara

Ingin ku jauhi dosa,

Ingin ku jauhi maksiat.

Bisikan syaitan,ku dengarkan.

Apakah daya,ku hanya manusia.

Oh Tuhan maafkanlah aku,

dekatkan ku padamu.

I swear i didnt know why is that there. I woke up from sleep cuz my dad wake me up to makan my ubat.

KAY BYEA

2010-11-01T11:29:00.001+08:00

2010-11-01T11:27:00.000+08:00

2010-10-27T22:27:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday dearest(:

You are officially 17 now according to Islamic time.Being 17 does not mean that you can be more wilder than you are or whatsoever.

Being 17 means, being seventeen years old.

Now that you are older (fact is you have always been older than me), i think its time for me to salam you.

HAHAHAHAHAH(:

Have a great one(:

Absolutely Disgusting.

2010-10-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

Somebody pull me,kick me,punch me.

Wake me up please.

My mind is blank now,

cant think,

cant feel.

Just staring at the computer screen.

I think i've let it out on my tumblr. This feeling that im feeling is choking me, and tears is going to rain before i sleep. I cant wait for things to change naturally. Winners dont wait. I should start by now. By now.

My head is tired,i think i strained it too much from thinking about the stress,about what time i should stay in home. Who should i go to,i seriously dont like asking teachers for help. Its not me. So, teachers are out. So im thinking which friend should i go to.

Should i buy assesment book or should i just use the materials that i already have like the school textbook and keep practicing. Just thinking about this, makes my head hurts. I guess i should rest for a while.

Baby's not replying my text. Im getting worried. Tomorrow is his birthday, and our 10th month. But i prioritize his birthday,cause i find birthday;s important.

I wonder what his doing.

2010-10-25T15:40:00.004+08:00

2010-10-25T15:16:00.003+08:00

Amalina, my crap talker buddy for the day.

So today had my baking course, i shall go for training in a while, just a while. I've been uploading them pictures. So, it went okay. Well, i was team up with Hilman and Amalina. Seriously, Hilman and Amalina -_-

They make me feel like a mother, hah! Guess im matured lah. Walao, oh yeah. My cupcakes was like unique :D

Cuz, Chef Cecilia has never seen anything like that. I will put the conversation below. So tomorrow will be my job evaluation, $14 in. LOL, heheheheh (:

EVERY CENT COUNTS OKAY, haha. Thats how, in need of money i am. I think? Or is that called despo?

Chef : May i know what is that?
Raudhah : Oh (: That is... something no one has ever make so, yeah. Its something,
extraordinary (:

I love you Bie (:

Cheesey.

2010-10-24T21:38:00.001+08:00

So today was a long day, get pissed off but dad make it up for me (: See, daddy's love . LOL, kay fine. Anyway, interview went well, tuesday 3-7, i will be having the training see whether i get selected. Nervous + paranoid. Nervournoid.

KAY BYE(: MUAH!

Love you bby(:

November coming soon.

2010-10-23T15:35:00.003+08:00

Dear Blogger,

Shi Hui just called me, tomorrow im going for the interview. Since its my first time,doing something like this and i feel so young to be doing this (LOL, whatthehell Raudhah), so i kind of feel paranoid and nervous at the same time. What would the manager might be asking me ? What should i be wearing? Oh sheesh, just wear shirts and jeans, ta-da~!

Gosh, i have a 'dont-know-what-to-wear-but-must-wear-really-awesome-shirt-or-jeans-or-whatever-i-dont-care-must-look-presentable-and-beautiful' problem.

Lol, im beautiful, hellyeah. Okay fine not. -_-

Dramatic.

2010-10-23T09:29:00.002+08:00

Nothing is ever okay if someone get hurt too much, tap that.

Yesterday, Ms Gan talked to me and i felt adult,lol.

" Raudhah, if bad seed is planted , it will spread. If a good seed is planted,it might motivate others and the garden will bloom,you like get what i mean? You are the gardener, its up to you on what kind of impact you want to make. Something in life there is no choice. Its either you ignore it,or improve it."

"Ms Gan, i get your point. But,i dont want to be a captain cuz, i always take the easy way out and im super very lazy i dont know what you guys see in me and chose me to lead the team."

"You want to know something? You are very honest and thats good. The team future, is in your hands Raudhah. Its really up to you. Like me, no i dont want to becaome teacherincharge of badminton but mrs k wants me to. But i've got no choice. Up to you, think about it.There is something in you that we see that has the potential to become a good leader that is why we bother so much about you."

"Your making it hard for me cher."

"It means ur not choosing the easier way out, thats, good."

Besides that training was tough,i think i've gone beyond my physical limits and here i am, body cramps and all. Will be cycling alone later.

Today i will be getting the job form thingy, tomorrow i shall go for my interview if everything goes as planned. Then my life would change drastically cuz, i can feel it that, im not being me. I am being someone weird and actually is thinking about my future. My wants,my needs,money,education,parents. Tuition. I guess i'll just self tuition myself (:

p/s:

Bie, im sorry for hurting you too much. Hurting you means hurting me so im hurting both of us so im terribly sorry. Im sucha noobass uh? Okay, i love you so much u knw?

);

Fighting Spiders.

2010-10-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

Just watched Fighting Spiders. I feel so tired from my shoulders to my thighs.

Redbull gives me moodswings , not wings.

Im tired.

Bye.

Okayyyyy, i feel so stressed , i dont know why. Im afraid i might not handle N level. So far, i pass all my subjects except for Mathematics for SA2. But, the marks has not combined yet, but for SA2 i did pass lah. If i get 60 > for maths and science for N level Prelims, i will take O level. If i couldnt get that, i will go ITE. Though the influence is like, 70% but i dont think that will affect me.

Anyway, sometimes i think that some of my friends dont deserve my friendship. I've got far too many friends and when i dont mingle with them, they will say," Wah,have boyfriend already forget us. " So i replied, " Oh sorry, too many friends to handle, friends like you make my life harder, i hope you understand (: "

Sometimes when im nice to them, they take advantage, like, they dont respect me. They will start poking me and touch me like, what girls usually do. And im not like that, you know. The most i will do is, poke the people nearest to me.

Oh by the way, meet, Siti Sofeah.

Sofeah. Shes really, the most resilience,respectable woman/lady i've ever met. Despite her health condition,physical wise, people gossips about her, she still live on with her life like none of that exists. Despite shes bleeding and suffering, she dont want to let others know about it. Because if she does, she will cry. How strong is that? Although shes fanatic about Choi Minho, she has a kind heart. Respect.

Its a blessing that i joined the religious class in Darul Makmur.

Okay, i dont know why the sudden change, but i feel different. I feel my responsibilities weighing on my shoulders.

As a student, a daughter , a singaporean , a Muslim.

It feels weird. Am i really changing or is this just another one of my silly feelings?

Bees.

2010-10-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

My 2010 school holiday will be the most busiest holiday ever.

Will be coming for every training except for the Thursdays. On thursdays i will either rest or go out, that thursday will be like my break day you know what im saying?

If i could, i would want to work on every monday to friday except for the thursdays in the morning. But on saturday,i would work at night. But, Shi Hui recommend me not to work at night on Saturday,but its okay. I'll try. And i would work on Sunday morning. So my Thursdays will be like my break day lah.

Next year is going to come first, it will be my N level year. And,i want to get to top 5. I need to beat her. If i do,i will be the happiest girl alive. But,i wouldnt be able to spend much time with bby and that kinda make me dowwwwwnnn.

Thinking of FNN coursework, and the others. I aim to get a B for English, A for MT , B for combined science and maths, and B for combined humanities.

Thats my goal for next year N level.

Yes,i set high goals for myself, by December, i will get myself set for that important year. I know its like only N level and not O level but N level is as important as O level to me.

Its to prepare me for the O's.

Im getting scared.

About CCA, im going to every single training because, of Coach. He is the greatest Coach although english kanasai, but he is so, kind-hearted. To be able to train us even our skills sucks and he has a busy schedule.

Seeing how much he wanted me to attend training makes me kinda, dissapointed with myself.

Hearing him saying how much he is counting on me for next year tournament makes me like, feel. You know.

Okay, im tired. I wanna eat, something cold. (:

2010-10-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

S YOUR A FREAK, IM GETTING SCARED OF YOU.

2010-10-18T19:58:00.002+08:00

CCA, CCA, CCA , CCA , CCA , CCA , CCA ,CCA , CCA , CCA , CCA ,CCA .

Why is it so damn bloody important? Okay fine,i know why its important but do you like have to take up my holidays? Especially the afternoon of my weekdays? This is, so, fcuking irrits you know? YOU KNOW YOU DUMBASS CCA I SHOULD HAVE QUIT WHEN MR SHAH SAID NOT TO, FCUK YOU MR ... And you left the school, leaving Badminton in the care of someone i dont like. Now i know why Bby dont really like Adam Lambert,i dont blame him.

EXCUSE ME MS GUN, YOU HAVE A FREAKING VAG PLEASE USE YOUR BRAIN,ASK YOURSELF WHY DO YOU HAVE A VAG? Stop acting like a guy when the students and your colleagues call you MISS. So not miss, you know? Irrits you know? Your presence is annoying and i can't really take it. You wanna be a tomboy sure you can, but to the extend of that outfits you wore to school and your, hair is seriously ohmygod... Oh My Great God .

Gotta stop cursing.

A quick one.

2010-10-18T14:51:00.003+08:00

Hey, just return from school. I got a new bike, so called not going training because,my mum does not allow me to. I will be going to admiral garden or park,the one near adm sec to have my own peace and quiet time. Thats when i will text him a long one. I hope it doesnt rain, please dont.

Well today received some of my results, failed english. I did cry,inside. Well outside appearing stoned and quite okay. Cause Muadz asked me about how much i get, and he said, "Why does it looks like it doesnt affect you? Are you not scared about retaining? "

Well, that just explain how good i can put on my masks and no one will ever know what im feeling. The only person i dont put on any fake masks is to, bby. Yes,u bie. You know my everything,my atitiude and all, u kind of tasted it.

What hurt me most is, i've hurt a person too much, wonder if i let go, he will be better on his own, but... i could not let him go. I just want him to be,here. Right beside me,everywhere around me. I love him too much to let him go, but no. I make it a point,i will never let him go even if i wanted to. I will get what i want,somehow or rather. Is that too rash? I hope not,unless i really have to. I Love You so much.

I feel weird when i text you like, currently.

Heart you, so much.

2010-10-15T17:19:00.001+08:00

The whole 3N6 , wonder who would retain, wonder who will promote.

Tomboy.

2010-10-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

I was listening to Avril Lavinge songs which reminds me of my childhood. Oh memories(:

Well Avril was one of my favorite (: Only after Adam Lambert shines, i kinda forget Avril. But hell yeah, Adam Lambert (: Okay stop the gay madness.

Anyway back to childhood times ~!

So i guess i was a tomboy last time? Awwwh, i was hot last time as tomboy. HAHA! I WISHED. Anyway, i kinda miss the times i shout and climb at the playground without anyone saying, "Hey your a girl,mind your manners." It was fun, hanging out with the boys wasn't a problem. But when it comes to boys now,it became a World War lll . A huge one . Anyway back to the fun times. I rode my bicycle quite often with the guys, like duh with the guys. Who on earth a girl will be riding a bike during that time other than me? Okay maybe not only me but, its my story anyway so yeah. They taught me a trick , and well yes, i did managed to do it but that was last time. Hell yeah,it was fun. Cycle in the rain, oops.. Didnt realize that. Played with earthworms. Played acting(: Color catching, crocodile, ice and water and so called soccer. Those were really good times of mine, outside, in school. Yeah.

Then when i was primary five Amira Abidin did a birthday party for me,all by herself. And someone ruined it for me and her and i left, cause i was hurt and i was kinda beginning to get sensitive. So i ran back home after chasing the guy who put smoke cigars on my cake. The time i chased him,was the fastest i've ever run. I focused on him all the way till my legs couldnt carry me anymore as my tears choked me down. I stop running and ran back home. Amira and my other friends came to my house, and gave me the presents. I can say that, i lost quite a few good friends. Then when i was primary five, she did a party for me again.

Under my block(: It was raining(: We slide at the badminton court, laughing like small kids(: I sort of dance in the rain. We played crocodile like usual after eating and dancing. And talk about being separated.

" Will we still remain like this when we step into secondary school life?"

" I dont know.. Maybe? (:"

I guess that was the last time i saw them all as a group, it was 20 November right. Then 22 November went to visit my WRSS if im not wrong. But i do remember that date.

After 2007, never heard of them. Never met. Well i cant force, we all have our own lives. Well for mine, i chose to live my life as it is now. And be with my bby till i leave this world.

Forever till old. LOL, but hell yeah.

Hello Blogger.

2010-10-13T21:23:00.002+08:00

Hey blogger, it has been a long time hasn't it? Anyway my end of year examinations has ended a day ago.I hope only for the best and the best of the best.Well i really hope i pass everything,i did all the papers with my 100% strength thingy, whatever you call that. My english still sucks anyway, like last time, hahah(:

Well live has been fair to me,i spend a lot and im almost broke now.So im planning to starve during my recess for the next few days in school.At least if i managed to starve a week,i can get $10 which will be,worth it.But im afraid i cant due to my gastric condition,so i guess i can skip recess or lunch.But i will try my best.I find my blogger nowadays a more personal blog than tumblr as more people visit my tumblr i think. But well if you do visit my blogger,tag my tumblr so that i know my blogger is still alive.So well i guess i will start pouring more of my feelings and thoughts here as tumblr is too open i guess.Well actually no, both of this blog i have are open.But well,i guess i prefer blogger.

My relationship with Muhamad Khairul Anwar Faiz has been quite smooth i can say.I love him more and more each day without him trying.Its like Bam! and i fall deeper for him.His love is the purest, like he told me that time.The purest is what he will give.And he did.His the most sweetest guy i've ever met,and a sensitive to others.To say his sensitive,his not.But to say his not,he's quite. Well, he has Heart. And his sincere, he is so sincere. I just have to praise him on that, his sincerity is so sincere. He has a heart made of Pure Gold.Solid gold.

And i guess that is what making me fall deeper for him.Besides his heart of gold, his eyes. I just sink into his eyes everytime he stares at me like that. Although to others his eyes are just normal looking human eyes. To me, they are diamonds. Two shining diamonds. His face, just his face. I dont know how to describe it.

Sometimes i look into his face,i see pain,i see struggles,i see cries.But i see laughters too.But somehow i see more pain. Sometimes i just want to hug him for an hour and love him like how a mother cat would love her kittens.As im typing,im crying. I dont know why.

I hurt him too much... Too much.

For the past few weeks, i hugged and kissed him. I feel like a woman when im with him.Its like he wakes up the woman in me, and it just feel weird. I know why i feel weird. Its because something has poisoned my mind.

" Im not gonna have a boyfriend till poly, i will never touch a guy's lips. I wont..... "

That, has been mingling with my brain cells since i was primary four till secondary two. No im not blaming you. If its not because of you,i will never have this happy feeling in my heart.

If its not because of you,i dont think im who i am right now. I love you so much, much that i've ever imagine.

Next, since i've been to a religious class. And due to that, somehow... I feel different. I dont know. Im beginning to feel scared,afraid. Imagine this, theres another life after you die. Imagine this, close your eyes. Your dead. Your lying somewhere dark. Then someone questioned you, but you fail to answer. You get beaten,by a very thick chain. You get whipped, beaten and all the worst. Isnt that scary? You dont even know when your time is up. It could be now,it could be tomorrow, and whenever. Look at the clock, its ticking. Time dont wait for you. Repent, by heart. Its a responsibility, its your choice. Its my choice. Looking at reality, it is harsh. It is so harsh... I dont know why im talking like this. Trust me.

Anyway,besides that whole religious thingy, lets talk about myself.So im like having a time out on my own without knowing.My handphone i left it on the other room,i dont know if anyone texted me but,i will get to that soon. Me . I have been fine, being myself the whole past weeks. Have been smiling, laughing but no i dont see myself crying often. Well that's good i guess? Tell you the truth,i do cry. I cry when i was pissed off,even on the phone while talking to bby. I dont know if he realizes it that time. I cry when im angry, i cry hard when i really get hurt. Or i feel, so sad. But when i dont,its either im controlling my tears, or i just dont want to let others know how weak and silly i am. Well because,i know i am.

I feel better now, thanks blogger(: I should check my handphone,if i dont, someone's gonna sulk (: If only he knows how much i love him.. I know he does. And i know he loves me so much too.

I believe.

2010-09-06T16:27:00.002+08:00

END OF YEAR EXAMINATIONS 2010!

I think the generation is screwed upside down and all over the place.

Hello Blogger(:

2010-09-02T14:11:00.002+08:00

Hello blogger.

Hello blogger again(: Raudhahs here, hell yeah! Today didnt went to school as theres something wrong with my eye.Thought that i would go poly clinic today but did not as my eye weas getting better towards the day which i find very weird.So tomorrow imma get alot of raudhahwhynevercometoschool. Anyway,life has been so far okay for me.Im in a Hari Raya mood now and im afraid i cant focus on End Of Year examinations.Cause im that kind of person who is like,can only focus at one thing.And its kinda hard for me like er.. I find it very hard to work fast.Well im always slow,i have been a slow human being all my life.

Anyway, Faizbby said that after he fnishes his ITE, he will be going to NS navy whatever thingy.He will be away for like 5 years and only come back during the weekends.I cant imagine that.I know its like "girl ur gonna see him during the weekends" but theres a part of me just so worried about him being away): But im okay with it,well its law.Cant stop Law.

Anyway,theres no amount of words can show my love towards Muhamad Khairul Anwar Faiz.I love him too much,so much,very much,a lot,super,duper,ultra.

I just love him.

Less Than Three

I Love You(:

Teachers Day,

2010-08-31T20:30:00.002+08:00

Today was Teachers and Staff appreciation Day.

I was screaming and my head was spinning,the sun was blazing hot and my head hurts.It throbs,i can feel it throbbing.My eye looks weird,one part of it is red the other part is not.Im feeling weak all over,i feel like im dying soon.I feel lifeless and,un-life.

Today was awesome besides me feeling weak all over(:

Life has okay.

Love,

Raudhah

2010-08-31T16:56:00.000+08:00

2010-08-31T16:47:00.000+08:00

2010-08-27T21:07:00.002+08:00

Syada syada syada oh!

Today was the last day of training till EOY ends! Like what Syazana said,this is the happiest moment of my life.Actually im gettting to miss Coach Du.Okay,im actually kind of missing him now,which is so weird sia.Anyway,life has been okay for me.Reason why i dont delete my blogger its because :

My past is here
Its my secondary school life
Its my first blog

There you go,my reasons.So this blog will remain alive till im old, God willing.And when im old,im going to re-read this posts and laugh at my young self, hah(: Isnt that like,awesome?Yeah maybe, a bit.

Anyway school has been okay.I dont want to use the word stress because if i do,i am going to get stress,you like..get it? Nevermind,but anyway, life has been fair.Its like a straight line,and its constant.Its not increasing,or decreasing.HAHA, what the hell,this is like physics lessson!About the gradient thingy. Okay,im back to tumblr life(:

MUAH.

August.

2010-08-13T17:09:00.003+08:00

Hey blogger(: No tagboard here,no link.For those who still visit my blog,please take note that im into tumblr already.

http://cheeseballchickenpie.tumblr.com/

Anyway,life has been okay so far.Except for this cow name Lalina who recently pissed off bby and affect me.Your life,will never be easy Lalina.Trust me,it will never.

Last week friday,went out with Ruqin to places she never went.Took Singapore Flyer and we fly up to the sky and we touch the ground 30minutes later i guess.Went to YOG park,Helix bridge and Esplanaderrr Rooftoper.Had a fun&tiring day(: I want a day like that with FaizBby(: I want camwhore with him, hah! Whatthehell.

Do visit my tumblr eh(:

Anyway,Happy Birthday Syadaa (:

For the idontknowhowmanytimes,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND,MUAH!

2010-07-24T17:40:00.003+08:00

RACIAL HARMONY DAY 2010

2010-07-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

Saya sayang Muhamad Khairul Anwar Faiz (:

Today,went out with that person up there ^^ Tag along with my sissy and her boyfieeeeeeeeee

Life has been fine(:

2010-07-15T20:58:00.001+08:00

My life has been fine so far blogger.

Tumblr has been nice to me(:

But it doesnt mean that im leaving you to rust man.

See im updating you again Blogger(:

Blogger,im a Captain.Im a Sleader.

It means,Slack-Leader.

Oh my goshhhhhhhhh,

Ale-ale alajandro.

I love Muhamad Khairul Anwar Faiz

Adam Lambert and Gays FTW.

2010-06-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

Announcement to my beloved friends who just found out about this blog of mine,i am more active in Tumblr so please please please,tag me in my tumblr alright AND YES,I do visit your blog.And still reply tags in blogger and yeah i still update my blogger once in a while.BUT HELL YEAH, TUMBLR AWESOME.

Hey(: Its 11.34pm,im in my rooooom my sister is in the toilet doing something kinky i guess :l
Im just kidding,my sister and i are good people,we dont do porn.Why am i sounding like ShaneDawson ? Big influence Shane, bad one Shane.Badddd one. I have been watching ShaneDawson,Brittani and ClicktNetwortk.Tv Chick VS Dick. Totally awesome.So,if i do have any stalkers which i think i dont, do check out those videos so you can know more about me and my type of,thang. Yeah,sooo ummm.Go check it out.Its really fun,make you laugh videos. Its for your entertainment.No porn,dont panic.Just vulgarities and sexy and nerd and geek. Hell yeah.

Anyway,my life has been pretty awesome.PRETTY AWESOME.My june holidays are like, poop.Except for my Thailand trip and my badminton trainings and all the wow weird happenings and so on.Its not that REALLY awesome because,my june holiday this year seems short.Its like,short of one or two weeks.And maybe im getting old,thats why... I have no idea what that is but, HEELLL YEAH.I love Hell Yeah.Its like, not heaven. Nope. But heaven's sweet. Hell Yeah.

Anyway, do visit my tumblr.Tag,and just keep stalking me.At least i knw im not talking to myself :D But,i talk to myself everyday.Its like,everytime after i bathe.LOL. Creepy stuffs eh.

Good night,im off to tumblr now.
(:

2010-06-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

HEY BLOGGEH .

I MISS YOU BLOGGEH(: Anyway,life has been good for me Khairul(: Fair enough lah ah.HAH! Anyway,my holidays are ending super soon and i hate it,urrrghhh. I SEMACKK THIS PPL WHO CALLED THIS HOLIDAY A HOLIDAY, kay fineeeeeeeh.

I wanna bathe,

LOVE YAHHHHH, whoever is reading this dead dead blog.

Sawadeeka.

2010-06-04T18:01:00.002+08:00

Raudhah is back from Thailand (:
I miss Thailand,i wanna visit Bangkok again.

I have a hard time uploading pictures.Till now,i have not uploaded the pictures yet.YET.Till now LEYY. Today i woke up at 11pm. I was super tired from the flight back home yesterday.I had cramps,cuts caused from hiking and my super long nails.

You know Mawi?I saw his clone during my stay at Kwae Resotel.I was like,wow.But but but,this 'mawi' is more charming in real life lah,not in the picture i took with him.HEEEHEE:D

Thailand guys are more friendly then Singapore guys.They smile more.So do i.I smile more at Thai then at Singapore.LOL.

I adore the Thailand 'chicks'.They really look like a real woman.They are really beautiful!Some lah.Some cannot,the body shape not there so better be a guy yeah.

I had a great time with my whole family.It was awesome and tiring.I love it.I super love it(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
I wanna go Bangkok again and meet that mawi clone again . LOL

You are the only Exception.

2010-05-23T22:02:00.003+08:00

I love the stars,as much as i love myself.
But tonight when i look at the stars,it reminds me of him.
And i begin to hate the stars as much as i hate him.

I love to see the cheeseball.
Cheeseball is gorgeous.
But in the morning today when i saw it,it reminds me of him.
And i begin to hate calling my sun cheeseball anymore as much as i hate seeing his name.

I laughed at my past.
I laughed at my reactions.
I laugh at myself.
Then i cry.

I look at myself in the mirror,
and i just said to myself.
Four words,
I Will Be Fine.

Date sama Syada!

2010-05-22T01:01:00.002+08:00

TODAY,OPAH HAD A DATE WITH MEKMEH :D
OPAH LOVE THE DATE THIS BIG :D

Navy Open House

2010-05-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

I TELL YOU,I HAD THE AWESOMEEST OF THE AWESOMEST TIME EVER WITH THIS BUNCH OF TAK BETUL PEOPLE :D SAYANG SAMA MEREKA!

WOOOH!

2010-05-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

Fringe please grow faster.

Life has been okay for me.Well,i can say it has been okay...Hahah(: Besides the bad results and grades dropping and everything,everything has been a so-so okay.Well on facebook,i get to find my primary school friends.Remember Basil? That cute guy in the class baby,oh come on u do.Sioll lahh, makin kiuttt siullll!Okay fine,he has the ang mor blood,its a no wonder.

Anyways, holidays coming soon.Well,im not sure what to do with it now.Im thinking of bowling,museum,ikea,swimming,picnic,sunsets,beach,shopping,laughters and fun.

Problem is,who am i going to go with?June date pleaseee.I know theres like no one who reads my blogger here,llolll.
But its okay,its fun talking to self, haha. Its like ur looking in the mirror and saying hi to it.

Hello Mirror, wow.Today u look beautiful.

2010-05-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

2010-05-12T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hey blogger. miss me? I think im gonna post here more often.People rarely read this blogger of mine anyway.
Anyway blogger, i feel different tonight.
I feel like a bitch tonight.I feel like as if i have hit a 100 criminal record for breaking someone heart a lot of times.
I feel like a sucker.I feel rebellious.I feel ego.I feel it all coming back.I dont care anymore.I just dont care anymore.Please, im a weird creepy creep immature thinks-about-herself-only person.Blogger,i need a hug.I just need a long hug.I dont want to talk much.Its tiring.I dont want to cry either or scream.Waste my time.As long as i know what i want,i will be okay.
Till that point when i dont know what i want, it means. Im,tired. Im fickle minded,i am.I have learn,to not promise anything. I shall not promise anymore. Thank you Blogger(:
Good night(:

2010-04-29T16:40:00.002+08:00

Yow Blogggerrrr (: I miss you for one thing blogger.Your colourful fonts cause i cant get you in tumblr
So far tumblr has been very good to me blogger,so yeah(: Omg,i look back at all my previous posts.Ini kisah secondary life aku siaaaaaa! It means,ermm.Its my secondary school life siaaa! Basically, lower secondary school life.Amazing how things change.Ruqin is still mine,hands off from her.Shes my bestfriend so whattttts ur problem,tell me we sort it out and i punch ur face if we cant(:

i MISS using big fonts.
Cool.

2010-03-23T18:19:00.002+08:00

Yes,im uploading the video here,cause tumblr dont allow me to,sadly); So dear,see how you play drummania,and the look on ur face during the very last part.It really cracks me up/out

Yee-har.

2010-03-17T15:13:00.002+08:00

Should i delete Blogger? But i have a lot of memories in here.Its since my Secondary one year till now.Omg, 2 years plus.All my Mr Shah's, my fights , likings and whatever is all here.Everything.About Hari Raya event,about Him.Yes you syg.About Partner, about you know everything.
Or should i just leave it like this,and once in a while update Blogger?Cause now im like really into tumblr,and i dont know.Its just fun, reblog everyday.Hoho, kill time.So, maybe i shall just leave Blogger like this.Thank you Blogger for being my bestfriendforver in the cyber world.
Muackss (: Cyber Kiss from me to you Blogger(:
I love you Blogger,i wont forget you Blogger dont worry.Tumblr wont rape me(:
Hahaha (: Im serious, Blogger. I love you thats why i dont delete you.Blogger say you Love me too.

Blogger : ILoveYouToo Raudhah (:

Tumblr.

2010-03-16T21:35:00.000+08:00

Raudhahlifestory.tumblr.com

Perhaps i will update there more often, YEEHARRR(:

Tumblr or Blogger?

2010-03-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking,whether i should change to Tumblr.
Should i?
Tumblr seems more, well you know,i dont know.
HAH ! It seems more, i dont know. It just attract me,only now. L-O-L.
Okay,maybe im changing to tumblr, mayyybe. If i do,i will let you all know yeah, jyeah.
Loving you all more than Adam Lambert (:

AdamLambert Sudden Obesession, pwned.

To Him (:

2010-03-16T20:54:00.003+08:00

I Love You More than Adam Lambert sexy face,
I Love You More than Shane Dawson smile,
I Love You More than Hayley Red Hair,
I Love You More than Before.

I Love You(:

Thank you,and for the final time,im sorry.
Lets start Fresh(:

D.

2010-03-16T15:47:00.003+08:00

I know,this sounds like yokayyy . But , yes i patch up with him. Im sorry partner. I've got to.

I want to listen to my Heart,not my Brain. AND yes,i want to dye my hair red ;D Maybe , cause. You knaww,hair care.Oh come on,its only one time.Im just waiting to grow older.Its gonna come soon.Highlights of red lah,not the whole hair red,omg.

Okay,yesterday :

Went to a few places with here,walk here and there.Bus-ed around.It rains,i didnt expect it to rain but he did.WOOOH.And , i miss him and his crappy jokes.HAH ! Not so crappy lah,its, funny.Everytime i see the poster in the bus,you know the SMRT poster thing just behind the driver.Im always reminded of his joke.Heh(: Funny lah,really.And the 'forgot to take his hair' joke.HAH ! Yeahs.Awesome day.I love you mannnnn !
SHAKE BUTTTTT (:
Thank you baby(:

Today went to pizza hut to eat lasagne and pizza,cause i was craving for it yersterday night(:
And i saw Mdm Rehana,with the sec 4 councillors.And Mdm Rehana said,'Raudhah,trying to avoid me ah?' Then i was like, ;D.
So,ate a lot.I think,i've gain weight.Then after that did window shopping,heartbreak.Cause pokai,cannot buy them shiny things.Mum said,'Go thailand buy,go.If cannot make it,then come back sg go shopping spree.'
Then i was like -_-
I saw this 3/4 pants its so niceeeee (: And it costs $48. OhMyGood 48 bucks for just a black 3/4 pants.You guys are trying to rip me off with the price eh.That sounds wrong.Anyway yeah.OH YEAH.

I HAVE COMPLETED ALL MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK ;D

Somehow,the Song Umbreall by Rihanna is stuck in my head since just now,i know its like Oh Raudhah,thats a really old song. But well.

YOU CAN STAND UNDER MY UMBRELLA,
ELLA ELLA EH EH EH,
UNDER MY UMBRELLA.

ADAM LAMBERT SUDDEN OBSESSION PWNED!

C.

2010-03-16T00:40:00.001+08:00

"Im so gonna carry you one day!"
"I run away,i dont care! On your Face!"

How cute.

Thank You.

2010-03-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

Two words for today, : Thank You (:

B.

2010-03-14T19:18:00.001+08:00

If you could tell me one thing,What would it be?

Answer (:

RedHead.

2010-03-14T19:05:00.003+08:00

See the smexy coloured-hair (: I want that hair.

Smexy Hair.

2010-03-14T18:57:00.004+08:00

Shane Dawson ;D

Cuteh.

2010-03-14T18:53:00.001+08:00

Admiring his smexy-ness.Wait,what is he holding?

A.

2010-03-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

I realize, that i took a lot of pictures,of the Sun.

HAPPEEE SUNNYDAY (: Well Sunnyday not so Sunny,its raining currently.Is it still raining? I've got no idea,cant hear the pitter patter blah blah blahs.

Dave please upload more videos,do it like Shane.Shane's hot and smexy.I love his hair.If im a guy,i would definitely do my hair like his.Okay,enough about Youtubers.

So today,is Sunday.Did nothing.I was,thinking the whole day.Doing my chores like,washing my shoes and my shorts and my socks.Yes,i wash my own socks.Cause my socks smells like Garlic+Onions+Chilli Sauce+Fish. Omg,that makes me wanna puke.Well,it doesnt smell to the extend of fishes,it just smells like smelly socks.Why am i talking about socks anyway.

So tomorrow going out.Maybe after that,i shall hang around somewhere and eat kfc on my own,i think.I think...So yeah anyways,hope you guys have a good Sunday.Tomorrow's Monday, its school day. HAHAH ! NO ITS NOT, ITS THE ONE WEEK BREAK, OOOH YEAH. HELL YEAHS.

Okay,i dont know why im so happy for the one week break.Well,maybe i have been waiting for it and so its here and well i kinda freak out?Okay,i sounds nuts.

Okay i got to go,got to peel egg shells cause my mum ask me to.

PEACE TO YA HUMAN BEINGS(:

ADAM LAMBERT SUDDEN OBSESSION, PWNED.

Egpyt.

2010-03-13T20:22:00.011+08:00

Secondary one,Secondary 3,Secondary one.

Sec one,Sec one,Sec two,Sec two,Sec two,Sec One.

Hajar missed it,see theese little brats.

Fine,i look so Old.

Giler dan Monyet

This woman,scared me out.

"All hail Sekhmet!"

So i was wondering,Egypt created Maths? Damn you.

The spec girl from Raffles Girl u knw ! Envy her.

We went to the National Museum(:Was tired,cause i was the noisy one.I was noisy,because they were quiet.Furthermore,im like the oldest over there?Yeah,im mix with secondary one and two people.Somehow,they should be the noisy ones.But its opposite when Raudhah exist.Enjoy Pictures.Yes, i look weird with the tudung,i know.God,he is everywhere.Tell me what should i do?

Hunted.

2010-03-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

SOMEONE BUY FOR ME HUNTED,I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER.
Im serious.HAH !
Omg,i just finish Untamed,it was Awesome.Finally Zoey is again Neferet/Tsi gi li and the Kalona whatever.Ouh,someone please buy for me.Im just kidding,if u have it,please LEND IT TO ME(:
I will kiss you.And i will sayang you.And i will hug you.And i promise i will take good care of the book,if you have it and decided to lend it to me ;D
Omg,im so obsess in this Vampire related story.ONLY this,yes.Only this.I dont read Twilight/NewMoon and its generations.Whatever you call it.OOOOOOOH, HUNTED.

pwned.

2010-03-12T22:10:00.004+08:00

I miss you.

Partner,you dont know.I know him,for a long time.And to just leave him like that.Yes,i said that i will.But,i cant.Im sorry partner.Relax.I will be fine.I will be very fine,i know how to take care of myself.Im sorry.My heart wants him back,but my two bestfriends says,not to patch up with him.They say,im making the wrong choice if i patch up...Should i listen to them?Or should i listen to myself?Suddenly the tears is coming back..Suddenly i dont know what to do,and im feeling all mix up again.HEY,Raudhah.Chill.

Heyy sup Humans (: THE ONE WEEK BREAK IS HEREEEEE,IT HAS COME TO RAUDHAH!
Oh yeah baby,time to rock that ass off.AND HEYY, THERES NO TRAINING FOR THE WEEK! I SCREAM WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS WITH AMALINA. Im sorry,but suddenly i felt so happy.Oh yes.One Week to my whole self.ShitASS we students got homework to do ! I finish my Geog,Malay and English-Book Review and the SocialStudies flowchart already.
So im left with,Physic,Chemistry and Maths.
OH SHIT PHYSIC HOMEWORK.I'VE GOT NO IDEA HOW TO DO THE QUESTIONS,SO IM DEAD. ShaoJiang,i love you man.If your Malay,i will fall for you already.Seriously,good thing ur chinese.I love you Ass.

Training,so far...quite okay.I have to,i need to be more strict with myself.I've got to throw away that no-mood-for-training feeling faraway.And be a Leader.I guess i could never be one?Thats just horrid.I've got to be one.Self-motivation.Yeah baby.
So,yeah thats about training.

Whats next...Oh yeah, I PASS MY SOCIAL STUDIES TEST, YAY-NESS. 9/12. WOOOH , gayness.Shanad pass the test super well, 10/12. alaaahh, only one mark difference.
Somehow,Shanad and i always don't pay attention during SS lessons,but we end up passing it quite well.AWESOMENESS , LETS DO THAT OFTEN. WHO KNOWS WE MIGHT EVEN ACE IT. Okay,im being too, crazy.
Indeed i was during the training.Last part of it.And hey,i deprove in my skills.Im so,disappointed.So this means,its time for a change.Train harder.Omg,cant believe i just said that.Believe in yourself man Raudhah.BELIEVEEEEEEE. OHMMMM.

Enjoy your holidays people,to Syarafina,enjoy your KL (; To badminton people,enjoy ahhhh.Come back training all play rusty already. To you all, Enjoy lah ah.Dont do crazy stuffs.Lets party all night baby.Okay,its only one week break.
WHO CARES,I NEED IT (:

Love you All(:
Te Amo.

ADAM LAMBERT IS THE HOTTEST MAN ON EARTH(:
GAY ROCKS.
OKAY,I SOUND GAY.

2010-03-11T23:12:00.001+08:00

Im no Justin Gayber fan.Davedays is uber cute.His so cute,His my current Youtube Crush now.
Dave,you are so ADORABLE.

2010-03-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

OMG, girls please dont do what i did.
Cause im now chatting with this weird weird 22 year old man. I know i should not be doing this.
He says , "I love girls who treats my like a slave... "
And i said, " Okay, like? "
And he says, " Like you know."
And he continus,"Im looking for someone who can torture me everyday."
Then i said, "Fuck off.Im not that type of girl.Go find someone else."

Wooh.WhatTheHell.

Tired/

2010-03-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

For dont know what reasons i feel tired tonight.Ohm,one week break here i come baby.Come to mummy faster.So what im planning to do during the one week break,

- Sleep longer
- Relax
- Go for training (if have.Confirm have)
- Spend a little time with friends, go out etc.
- But most probably,i will be spending the week in my house sleeping and resting.

WOOH . Most probably lah. But then if i have to come back to school to discuss about the Sec 2 Camp,then i have to lah. OhMyGod,time fly really fast.
And i have to make up my mind. And i have to be brisk. Mid-Year examinations coming soon. And yeah,they lie to us.They say we're going to get our Progress Report but then they say sorry next term then get.I was like, "I WAS SO PREPARED FOR IT AND EXCITED TO SEE IT."
Oh well,what to do.Oh yeahhh, We Are The World ! Im talking about the Performance@Republic Poly which is coming so soon ! Its like,just 2 more weeks to go, on the 27th March. OhMyGod,i hope Mr Shah's gonna be there.If no,well too bad then.
I hope its not the same thing like last two year performance. Im Geekxited. YAYYY , IM GOING EGYPT THIS SATURDAY (Going to the museum and see the whatever egypt related stuffs) ! AND its clashing with the Saturday Meeting thingy. So im sorry,i dont think i can go for the meeting,cause HEY, this is my religious class field trip, ahh u get what i mean.So i will be doing the egypt dance.WOOH.

Okay,its kinda good that im beginning to get more crappy and retarded. Okay,nights.I need my beauty sleep. WHUTTTT ? Its only 10 pluss? Alright babies, Good night and sweet dreams (;

2010-03-11T20:12:00.002+08:00

Some pathetic and purely retarded coversations i had today and yesterday.Thanks lah guys and gals,made my day better.

Raudhah : Syada,you have to save my life,do you have a purple file?If you have give it to me,i pay you.If i dont have it , Mr Yeoh is going to kill me.
Syada : Who is Mr Yeoh?
Raudhah : You dont know who he is? His tak betul(not right in the head), thats why i need your help cause if you dont, Raudhah will die.

Then Raudhah text Syada :

SYADA! Your friend life here is at stake,do you have the purple file? If not Raudhah will die!And if theres no Raudhah,theres no cute ! Cute wont exist without Raudhah.

Then she replied :

ALAMAK!! Purple out of stock ! ....

Raudhah :

AHHH MATI KONYOL ! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ....

Then this one,i was talking to myself,i was at facebook.I was saying 'im dead,im dead im dead'.
Then i saw, MR SHAH FACEBOOK ACCOUNT. I SCREAMT. I seriously did.My mum came in when i screamt. And i said, "Youtube,scary video.AHHH !"
Then i chatted with Syada on MSN :

SYAADAAAAAA ! I FOUND MR SHAH FACEBOOK ACCOUNT ! AHHHHHH
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGOMGOMGOMG
AH OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
AH OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
IM NOT TELLING YOU WHATS HIS ACCOUNT! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

Lastl ast,i gave her the url.And its for you to find out babyyyy.OMG, HE LOOK CUTE.Even though his married.STILL, his my Sensei.

Then this one,i was talking about how sexy Adam Lambert is :

Raudhah : Adam lambert is the sexiest man on Earth.Im im a guy,i will turn into a gay and kiss Adam Lambert.
Amalina : EEEEH , Adam Lambert is GAY . And besides,his sooo gayyyy.
Raudhah : How many times u must repeat his a GAY? SO WHATT LAHH, HIS STILL HOT.AHHH ! Not like Justin Gayber, his a sex robot. Shane says so (: and his soooooo whatever.His more gay lahh eh.
Amalina : DONT YOU TALK ABOUT JUSTIN BIEBER LIKE THAT. AND HIS NOT GAY.
Raudhah : So i guess Justin is a lesb.
Amalina : RAUDHAH !

Then i was talking to Wei Xin.Wei xin was taking away Joanne Pencil Case.And i stared at him.

Wei Xin : Okay sorry sorry.Raudhah teach me how to be gentleman,only Raudhah.Only Raudhah.Haik.Arigato.
Raudhah : Good.

While waiting for Napfa,i was singing like ass for 1 hour.

Raudhah : I gotta feeling,thats tonight gonna be a good good night.Thats tonight gonna be a....
Miao Ling : Raudhah,shut up.
Raudhah : Baby are you down,down,down,down down.DOWNNNNNN, DOWNNNNN.
Miao Ling : O_O

Anyway,i scalded my hand during the homec practical.I was like OUCH.So embarassing.And hey,i did it ! I BAKED APPLE CRUMBLE ! IT TURN OUT NICEEEE, AHHH !
I was freaking scared for the practical cause,Mdm Aishah is like the,very observant type.So its like,you are being watched,every movement she will observe.So its like, STALKER. Okay,no kidding. But hey, i did it. Shake butt.
Napfa went quite well. Anyway,things has been going fine.I just need to make up my mind.Im sorry Partner,if i do things thats gonna upset you.And Partner,i love you.HEYY, we are so BFF okay.Talking about BFF , yesterday when i was on my way to Mac with Syadaa and Amalina :

Syada : How do you know about that?
Raudhah : *in the bitchy way* Of course i know,i was your BFF okay. hah ! Just kidding,i am still now right.

Omg.i need serious theraphy. How do you spell that word? Ah nevermind,u know what i mean.
ADAM LAMBERT PWNED.
Have a nice day Readers (:
I love you all even if you dont love me cause you are reading my craps here, righttt.
I love you babbbbee.

Apologies

2010-03-09T17:33:00.003+08:00

People,his not to blame or whatsoever.I hope i make it clear.Its me.Yes, me. M-E, me.Im really sorry.Last week,was a disaster.My mood went totally upside down.I cursed the whole week.I'ver never swear-ed so much before in my life.So i guess i was not right in the head.And,its okay.I asked for it.Choices have consequences.Nowadays i always look onto that quote, Choices have Consequences.Okay,stop that Raudhah,your giving me the creeps.

Im really sorry.I know,i know.I always say leave me leave me,tried to get over it.I cant.I hate myself for doing stupid stuffs and end up hurting someone i really,love.Yes people,i know.

So Raudhah,everytime u are pisses off,remind urself to stay calm so that you dont do anything rash and hurt someone feelings,badly.Okay Raudhah?You get that i mean? God. Whats the matter with you.Leaders dont runaway from problems.Am i a Leader? Omg,its fweaking me out.

Im going to bathe,now.Yes.Its almost 6.And i havent...take me shower.Okay,im going now.
Im really sorry.

Booms.

2010-03-09T17:11:00.003+08:00

One week break is coming soon.Im gonna use that week to go out with the people im suppose to go out with and do the necessary.Ruqin,ours is on? Cant go out on Thurs.Have something on that day.So far,school has been oky.No one has pisses me off.So,its been okay.Besides family matters and that.Well,family matters put aside first.Setle that on Friday evening.And then confirm everything will be fine.Over the weekends,i will be okay.One week break come to mummy faster.Anyway,im starting the countdown for certain things.

1) Mid-Year-Examinations - 7 more weeks
2)School concert@Republic Polytechnic - 2 more weeks
3)Secondary 2 Camp - 3 more weeks
4)Getting our performance record for ca1 - 3 more days.

Omg,time flies so fast.Mid year examinations is coming like so soon.That is scary.I know.It feels so different.Well,Raudhah.Welcome to Upper Secondary.Thats what Mdm Aishah told me.And by the way,Maths test today.I thought i was going to fail.And now,i still think im going to fail.But i think i might get a pass.Its a 50% chance i can get a pass.And it will be a miracle if i pass the test beautifully.

Homec practical is not today,its gonna be on Thursday.Im like effing scared for it.Im scared i might do mistakes and well you know.And what else...On Saturdaay i will be going to the Museum,visit Egpyt thingy.Its a field trip from the mosque.So yeah,im going to egypt.
Okay next post,is about.Him.Yeahs, ooh yeah.

No pictures.

2010-03-08T21:50:00.001+08:00

Hello(:
Yes im okay.I should be.Tomorrow,there will be a maths test.And homec practical.Im so dead.How to bake apple crumble? OhMyGod.Im a dead duck.

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2010-03-08T15:52:00.002+08:00

I can still smell your breath.Your presence still lingers around me.I ask for it,i really ask for it.One thing i promise you.Your my First,and the Last.That one,i will keep for sure.Stop crying for Heaven sake Raudhah.He will be fine.He will be Fine.And i will be Fine.I will be fine.I will.If your reading this,i just want to tell you this.I am really sorry.Dont do anything rash,take care of yourself.Dont drink too much coke.And soft drinks and sweetenned drinks whatever you call it.Drink more plain water.More.Please.Take care,really take care.Really.

Im sorry readers.Im just letting it out here.So, you dont have to read this.(: Love you all Readers(:

Whatever you do,wherever you are.You are always in my mind.Even though im the one who ask for it,somehow...Every morning,every night and everytime, you are always in my mind.And i will always hold myself from crying.Why am i crying? No idea . You should've known Raudhah,your no girlfriend material type whatever shit.See what you;ve done? You hurt him,and you hurt yourself.Your sucha dumb-ass.I cant seem to delete all the nicey nicey sms-es you sent me.I cant seem to even change your name in my handphone to AnwarFaiz.It stays as FaizBby(: . It does,it is.Whtever. Since you let me go already,i shall..let it go too.
I did not eat for recess nor during the lunch break.You were right.I've got no appetite now.Something inside me has died.I know.Well,i ask for it again.U, really take care.Your health and You is my utmost concern somehow.Somehow.

I cannot say Bye to you.I just cannot this time.I just cant.

2010-03-08T15:37:00.002+08:00

The tears keep coming out,it keeps ruining the powder i put on my face.And i re-apply the powder everytime.Okay,now im crying like hell. Stop crying please, your face looks sooo not cute Raudhah.

2010-03-07T20:13:00.002+08:00

No matter where you Go,
I wont be very Far,
Cause in my Head i'll be right there where you Are.

I will be having my chem test, malay test and Homec practical. Im d-e-a-d for homec practical.I dont know how to use the baking oven...Its okay.No,its not okay.Mdm Aishah is going to be,like what she is.You know how she is.
On Friday,i will be getting my Class Performance record thingy,where it shows how well you did for your CA's whatever you know what i mean.For the first time in my life,im scared upon receiving it.Even though its just,the CA one.

I think i've hurt my knuckle enough already.Everytime i take something from my right hand,my knuckles will be pain.You readers get what i mean?Its like,everytime i 'fist my hand', my knuckles hurt.Tears out of Stock for now.Im not crying anymore.Im just going to focus on my studies somehow right after my one week break.Gonna spend my one week break wisely.Maybe one of the day,i go out alone.And the other 2 more days,go out with Ruqin or Hajar from my religious class.Then the remaining days,at home maybe?I dont know.See how lah.

Why?

2010-03-07T19:23:00.001+08:00

I dont know.. Why am i feeling so weak? Its ur decision Raudhah,ur not suppose to feel bad about it.My heart feel so weak...I just couldnt say anything,i just want to keep quiet..I dont know what to do... Even stuffing my earpiece in my ears could not help..I feel so,stupid..Okay,rightttt i am.

;Let me Be.
Let me hurt myself.
I wanna know how hurt feels.
I know this sounds dumb.
Well,cause i am(:

Anger Go Away

2010-03-06T21:15:00.002+08:00

Im not being racist.Im just being me.I despise Indian Women.Nowadays,i cant control my anger.So just now,what happen was :-

It was a not so good day today.Went for the Camp meeting but it last for 2 hours and we end up going home at 9.30+ instead of 12.00.Went mac's,bought sausage mc muffin.Ate that at the 13th floor of my block for no reasons.I just want to be there.Went back home,did chores.My brother tuition ends at 3.30,so i slept on 2.00.I woke up at 3.25 on the dot,i rushed to the tuition center cause i thought im gonna be late in fetching my brother.I reached the tuition center at 3.30 on the dot .I waited,and waited..And waited,and waited.The time was,4.10.I waited for 20 freaking minutes.Thats considered like late.But then i didnt go into his class,cause the sign says that i cant go in.So i waited,and waited.4.30pm.I cant tahan,and i forget my manners.I knock the class door,went in and said "Where is Muhammad Adam?" The Indian bitch said "There,his doing his last page,im sorry but ur not suppose to come in." Then i replied "I though class ends at 3.30?I have waited for more than 30 minutes, 45 minutes infact." Then Bitch replied "His doing his last page now,give his 10 minutes." Then i just walked out from the place . I didnt even say thank you or sorry.Cause,you know me.I cant stand late-ness.Unless its someone i really love i will be okay with it.But this one,tak boleh tahan.

Then he came out from the classroom at 4.45pm.Then the Bitch says "Next time ask Adam to call you so that you dont have to wait for so long." Then i look at her,and said "Okay,thanks."
I was pathetically glaring at her.Then i ignored my brother all the way.Somehow the anger is,let out a bit to him.And HE COMPLAINED to my mother.So i was more pissed off.Then my mother called the tuition center to ask why Adam so late and whatever.Then my mother said "RAUDHAH,the teacher says you are rude.Cause u did not said excuse me and......."
Then i replied "Im sorry,i couldnt tahan lah, very late okay.I rushed there cause im afraid i will be late." Then my mum said "Still, ur manners.Whats wrong with you nowadays?"
I ignored that question and stuff the earpiece into my ears,tuning the song to the max volume.
It was 5.45pm and i was stuffing the earpiece while lying at my bed till 6.45pm.Then i stood up and eat and i went back to the room stuffing the earpiece into my ears again.

I seriously despise indian women.Since that last last last time incident where police came to my house because i 'fought' with my stupid indian women neighbour twice.Then the way they look at me.And please minahs,dont look at me like im one of yours.Im not one of you.I know my face,very cute lah.No need to look at me like that.Dont think im not capable of doing the things that u minahs do.
See,i get agitated very easily.

2010-03-06T17:12:00.001+08:00

EVERYDAY JUST GET EVEN MORE WORSE.
Fuck the World this days.

2010-03-06T14:43:00.002+08:00

I Blew It.Didn't I?

I know what i said.I know Shao.I know...But.Its just hard..Tomorrow..The E..nd... Sighs...What have i done?What have i just did?Im so heartless.Heart-Less.Less-Heart.You were right,i am.
Arent i such a problematic human being?So, nonsensical?So, dumbdumb? God. Readers im fine,i guess i am.Im just,talking to myself?I know,but its not like you never talk to yourself before right?No offence..

I cant.I cant...
Im feeling very tired,very weak.Even though i smiles,im tired of smiling for now.I want to sleep.

2010-03-05T20:02:00.002+08:00

Have you ever feel that,you dont want to do a certain thing.But you've got to with a Heavy heart?
Knowing that if you do it,you gonna lose it and you will be miserable the whole time and missing those moments everytime?And knowing that if you dont do it,your gonna lose your mind but then loving every moment you got with whatever situation you are in?
It freaks me out,somehow when i do things that i dont want to do or intend to do.It scares me.

Today, school was okay(:
Training was okay(:

Tomorrow, Sec 2 Camp Meeting at 8-12 then go back home straight.Do what im suppose to do every weekend,no inline skating tomorrow.Im too tired to do that.Its just gonna be me,i and myself.My body,my soul,myself and just me.And nothing else except the earpiece which will be stuck in my ears.So yeah.

Okay,im not being bhb.People actually love my smile(: The aunty in my school canteen vendor told me,"You secondary what? You have nice smile ah !" Oh my goodness.

God,please give me the strength to go through this.I know,im lacking of resilience.I want to repent.But then,it really breaks my heart to see him cry.I left him alone with the walls.I left him alone.I made him say Please more than once.Thats very bad already.Im heartless.Im a fool in love.I cant be a lover then.Choices have Consequences.So what am i going to do?To me,if i stay,i will hurt him.If i dont,i will hurt him too.Why only now Raudhah?Why?Dumbass lah you.You really want it to end?You dont right?Huh?What?Okay.

2010-03-03T20:24:00.002+08:00

fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.fuck you.Yes YOU
Sorry my beloved readers.Today,im real pissed off.Really,really pissed off.With typical human beings.God,why people like you exist?

Harith,your a damn bitch.Your a damn damn damn stupid idiotic moronic bastard.Fuck to you.Fuck to you.Bapak kau kaya kan?Gi suroh bapak kau yang bakhil macam kau tu belikan kau jam baru ah! Aku dah cakap, aku tak tau, aku tak pegang pun.Aku cumer kasih miao ling jer,then last touch aku tak tau.Aku dah sumpah,aper lagi kau nak?Nampak sah kau nak cari pasal dengan aku kan? Kanina. Kau kurang ajar bodoh.Sialan.Buto.Ah gi mampos ah samer kau !

And you bitches.Im sorry i have to call you bitches,its because i dont want to insert your real name here.So,if you think its you.Then it is.Please lah.First come first serve.You came to school early you better sit in front , dont expect me to sit in FRONT when i come LAST. Damn you bitches.Damn you.I dont want to ruin my morning.But since its ruined already,and then during assembly.You all dont want to move to the front, so i move to the very front.I knock on to many people when i move to the front cause i was just too pissed off with the harith case.Then when i sit in the very front,you came and asked me to move back.I did not.But then you all came like a gang infront of me waiting for me to move back.I dont want to make a scence.So i just shouted.And i know,its wrong.I never shouted at you girls before,but i got to.Im pissed off.What do you expect.And OBVIOUSLY im in a bad mood,still ask for what?Your just adding in oil to the fire.So dont blame me when i pushed you back.Im not going to sit in the front anymore.Im not,IF i come late.

Next,training.Im sorry i said that i dont want to be a captain anymore.Truthfully,what are the qualities i have?
I lack of resilience,i tend to give up so easilly.And no,i cry not because i felt guilty or sad.I was angry.Too angry infact.Cause,i was pissed off the whole day.So,i kind of...let the tears flow? Its very hard to communicate with Coach.Its seriously very hard to communicate with him.Yes,i wish i could understand and talk chinese fluently.But then if i do,i will have to hear his scoldings in his usual harsh way.Is the language he uses when he scold us really harsh? Does he use vulgarties? I heard complains,about coach scolding my juniors in vulgarity once.You want to scold lah.But then is there a need for vulgarity? Your a MAN you know? And seriously,i love my juniors.The Captain,especially.When you cry,i feel like crying.And that makes me angry with coach cause he was the one who made you cry.
I know,min.I have that feeling too.The feeling of,dont want to come for training anymore.Just talking about having training the next day makes me 'ohwhatthehell'. Seriously,this few days/weeks, i really have no mood for trainings. I know, you sec 4s are not suppose to be telling us to do all theese stuffs anymore.Im sorry.I know im suppose to lead the juniors.I just cant.Just cant... So i've dissapoint you. Im sorry.

Damn tomorrow. 2.4km. Damn damn damn damn DAMN . Cant stop cursing. I dont even have the mood to study or even to sleep tonight. I think im gonna curse the whole night. Swear swear swear and swear. Never been so pissed of in my life. Ah Fuck.
I swear i need that one week break.If theres training on the one week break,im gonna... ...

Im out from here.

2010-03-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Just now,Dayana called me, she asked for help to raise fund for her school/class.I forgot what.

$5 for a teddy bear.For a primary school bestfriend,i helped her buy that theddy bear.So for the first time in 2 years after separated,i saw her tonight.Around 9.00pm.Didnt expect her to give it to me so fast.So i went out with my pyjamas...Yes,the leopard preelings thingy is my pyjamas.And she says i look cute ;D Okay enough of cuteness.

Today,i thought theres a chem remedial after school.Sekali paisey -.- So waited for dearest.While waiting i did my homework.Most of the time i was like, staring at the question.Pathetic.Very.Dearest gave me a disc of his favourite songs.Well i think im starting to like them too.Cause i just realize im like nodding my head to the beat, omg.Scary.

Thank youuhhh (:

I love you Dearest(:

2010-03-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

Omg,this baby has big eyes.AHHH ! Your so cute Baby Mason.

Yes,this baby is Korean -.- How can that be? This baby is so cute!

Dear,i only like this Korean.The other koreaners i dont like.Really lah !

2010-03-01T17:32:00.003+08:00

Ouh ! This Baby is sooo adorable (: AHHHH WHY ARE YOU MORE ADORABLE THAN ME MASON?
Anyway,im not allowed to go for training on every Mondays.Cause i tell you the reason tomorrow.But still,im going on the Wednesday and Friday ones.
Im suppose to rest now after my class.I tried sleeping,only slept for pathetic 10 minutes.Cause the phone was ringing and i was ignoring it and i couldnt stand it any longer so i switch off the current and then here i am.
Eh, that Baby Mason is more cuter than Taylor Lautner or any of those korean guys you all talk about everyday lah.This baby is cutest, pwned !

Today,is the luckiest day of my life.Im not dead for Geography Test.So im lucky.I almost fall down while taking the stairs down form my block,so im lucky.Oh yes,only one unlucky thing.
For Chem,im surrounded by 4 horny boys.So, you would not be suprise seeing me talking dirty.
Its okay Mrs Whelan,dont feel bad.I know im a good girl thats why you changed my seat and made me sit with Haikal.Yes.Sadded.I was like, ohhh no.

Oh yah,a mosquito kissed my on my leg.I scratched it in the morning and it bled.Lecia saw it and hit me.Cause she says its disgusting,Now it looks disgusting.

Baby baby baby baby(: We are gonna be fineeee.I dont want to lose you,nononono.
I love you very much dearest(:
U ni eh... HAH ;D

Procastinate

2010-02-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

On 8.00PM, Raudhah said shes gonna start revision when the clock strikes 9.
On 9.00PM,Raudhah said she confirm starting revision in 10 minutes time.
On 9.10PM,Raudhah shared to the Facebook World that shes suppose to start on her revision.
On 9.30PM,Raudhah has her worksheet on her lap,and she just let it rest at her lap.
on 9.45PM,Raudhah said, okay im totally doing revision now.
On 10.00PM, Raudhah is blogging and sharing to the world that shes suppose to do her revision now.

Okay,i know.I will be doing it in a little while.Okay.Okay,good.Okay,now its 10.10 and im starting to yawn.

30 seconds later after 10.10PM, Raudhah says,Okay im talking to myself.
A few seconds later,Raudhah says shes a damn weird human being.
NOW, Raudhah confirm doing her revision, NOW. Yes, NOW.No more computer, just me the worksheet and my soul,body and me me me me me.Yes.Its a date.Im having a Date with my Geography Worksheet. Dont Disturb.

2010-02-28T17:47:00.002+08:00

You left me breathless.You left me speechless.You left my heart beats fast.Now i cant concentrate.But its okay(: Its really okay.

Hey people(: Im back.YES ! I KNOW, I tried to view my February posts but then only the Sports day one came out...Damnnn. So,i think im going to use the normal template for my blog?HAHA (: YESSSSSH.

Anyway, today marks our Second month together(: YAY (: I love you Sayang (: Thank you for the wonderful and very happy days we had(: Sorry for all my wrongdoings towards you and all..Thank you for being a boyfriend for this Geek(:

Okay people, TOMORROW is a MONDAY. Like they all say Monday BLUES.Sadded? NAHHH.Tomorrow im having my geography test,i think im going to revise it in a while.And tomorrow have training at Sports Hall... Dangz.
Okay, enjoy the rest of your day.Oh shit,i have not iron my uniform ! Now i have to iron it.

Kay,
Love you my readers whoever you are (;
Love you dearest(:

Easy wear diapers,Mummy poko Pants!

Yes you are

2010-02-27T13:41:00.002+08:00

I am chatting with my Madrasah friend Hajar,remember that Ass?

Hajar : Im laughing till all my intestines are coming out

Raudhah: HAHA ! No lah,its the stomach come out first,then the big intestine then the small then u knw what lah.
Hajar : GONG XI GONG XI !
Raudhah : Eh wait,you say come out from where? Your mouth of your holes?
Hajar : Uterus lah.
Raudhah: O_O EEEEEE ! Now i no appetite to eat already lahhh
Hajar : EEEEEEE so disgusting !
Raudhah : Now you realize. -.-

Raudhah : Im smarter than you by one year okay!
Hajar : Yeah yeah
Raudhah : I know what PMS and PSA means,u dont.
Hajar : PSA short form for 'pasar' right? (pasar means market in malay)
Raudhah : HAHA NO! What only, actually i also not sure what it stands for...

I got a confession to make,im still immature.

Off to cousin Crib

2010-02-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

Spot me? HAH

Summary

2010-02-26T22:23:00.002+08:00

The Sun in my eyes !

The sun in my eyes thingy,was what i screamed when the class wasnt doing any cheer.And that time,i remembered the sun is coming up and it shines directly toward us.So i screamt SUN IN MY EYES SUN IN MY EYES ! Nazirul look at me pathetically with that look on his face .

I Scream,I Shout,I Cheer,I Laugh,I Talk,I Took Photos,I Mad and lastly,I Cried.

Good Job 3/6 O.E.I and Double Good Job for BADMINTON in the CCA Relay ! Im so missing you guys when your gonna leave us next year ): YOU DID WELL BADMINTON-ERS RUNNERS! WOOOOH !

Pictures below,below below.A few Videos.One is a short conversation in malay unfortunately,which im suppose to delete it(; And the other one is the CCA Relay and the last one is while we waiting for Voon Jin to run her turn.Yeah.

Pictures,i dont think i need to explain them.All i know is that,i look cute in almost all of the pictures i snapped.Anyway,i think im the only camera girl in the class on the Sport Day u know?I was screaming my lungs out and even Hajar think i've gone nuts. Oh Come on,you guys arent that supposrtive enough so i ACT crazy lah.

U,im sorry.Yes,again.I Admit i am tak betul.Seriously.I know lah i tak betul.Haha(: Sorry if i ruin the day for you.Love you baby(: 2 more days to our two months(: YEEEHAAA !

HAHA (:

Sorry.

2010-02-26T21:51:00.002+08:00

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2010-02-26T21:24:00.003+08:00

Sports Day./ Raudhah is damn weird

2010-02-26T20:11:00.011+08:00

Fcuk to you

2010-02-25T21:57:00.001+08:00

I seriously despise Minahs who wear really really really short skirts.Might as well just wear your underwear right? Oh just get naked on the streets will you? You want to be in the center of attraction go walk around in the streets naked lah.

Under my Umbrella

2010-02-25T20:41:00.003+08:00

Raudhah was playing with the Bamboo stick while Mdm Rehana is talking.
Rehana : Okay Raudhah,you will be my bamboo girl,bring this 2 bamboo stick home and bring it to the stadium tomorrow.

Pathetic.So yeah,thats what you get if you played with the bamboo stick infront of Mdm Rehana.My class havent get the class tee yet, what the hell.I heard its gonna be White,Black and Grey in colour.. Okay.. But then, so what if we dont have the best cheer,or the best class tee or banner.We have the Team Spirit, OEIIIII ! Okay, love it.Starting to love my class , but seriously. We are just too noisy.Thats why i love my class.
Had Social Studies Test,and to me.It was pretty easy.Hope i passed it,ohmygeeesh.And,what else happen today uh? Oh yeahs, slacked in class after practice our class cheer.Crazy people we are.God.We were pretending to be stars,singing with the bamboo stick and i was just lying to the tables watching them and making noise,pathetically.Played with the Bamboo stick.I was trying to pretend to be like,a Martial Art pro.Get it? So i was like,spinningi it,playing with it and so on.

God.Yesterday night i was on the phone with dearest.Then i slept while revising my social studies and i forgot that i was actually on the phone with him.I slept on the study table -.- Woke up at 3am,realizing my phone was still on my hand,and i actually said hello to the phone.Pathetic pathetic.Sorry , it was unintentional , really.Sorry(: Wont do it again.Did u hear me snore?No right? OHMG, paisey u know. Tomorrow sports day.Still wondring if i want to plate the other side of my hair.Then i will look like a freak with the bamboo stick taking the mrt to YCK.Its okay then, being a freak is totally freaky.

Shall end here.And yes Dear,im talking to myself -.o eleeh, mcm u tak pernah berbual sendiri gitu eh!

TEEEHEE (:
I love you Sayang(:

Second Post.

2010-02-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

Yes,i got no pictures . I know, but i will soon have lots of it ! Cause this Friday we are having our Sports Day (: Ohhh yeah baby ! I will not be running or whatever i will be the person cheering and screaming and dancing and taking lots of photos , thats for sure(: Whats the thing that i wanted to talk about?

Oh yes, You(: This is super Final final final final time,and thats it no more. Im sorry for what i had done,for my very tak betul atitiude and sorry for hurting you. You are better than the best(:
4 more days to our two months baby ! Oh yeah,time flies so fast man. I love you(: I love you lah,you know i love you(: (: (: (: (: (: (: Cant stop smiling to myself.GOD,i sound like a total freak.
You take care okay.Drink more plain water.Dont always drink sweet drinks/soft drinks okay.Better take care of yourself okay,if you dont,i shall not eat.And i mean it.

Alright, what else ? OH YAHHH. NAPHA test is like,next next week? And my 2.4km run is like next week friday? Like wth,so fast sia. Then sooner i will be going for the secondary 2 camp which im excited about now(: Then sooner it will be our three monthsary ;D Then sooner we will be having our Mid Year examinations which im kinda scared of. Then sooner we will be having June Holidays.Then sooner i will be going to Thailand ;D Then sooner, well the list goes on and on lah (:

Okay i think thats it for now. I really need to revise for my SS , or im dead for my test.
Sayonara (:
Saranghe (:

I Love You.Serious.

2010-02-24T19:23:00.002+08:00

Hey Blogger(: Sorry for not blogging like i always do.Besides,who would read my blog anyway? Hah (: School,has been busy.I got to buck up in my studies and stop thinking about things that im not suppose to be thinking of like youknowiknowweallwas. On Monday,the Student Leaders and the CCA leaders went to the Dairy Farm Adventure Campsite to see the place.The place is okay,but its complicated and its small.So im wondering,how to plan exciting and great activities for the secondary twos when the space is not that big?And besides the space,the bunks were located anywhere.Its scattered all over the place.So its gonna be hard to go to another place then back to the bunk.
And there was one more thing.There are lots of Monkeys.Haha!We're scared of monkeys.Hah(:
And on our way there,i was hearing the conversation between Sheela and ZhongHao.Ohmg,they are crazy people.In a positive way lah.

Sheela: Ouh,ZhongHao has upgraded himself from a pig to a Cow.

Thats like cool,find that amusing somehow.
Then we went back to school.I stayed back.I sat with Denise,Hajar and Shaojiang.We had a conversation.Denise shared with us about a video,a band called the 'Chilli Peppers' thingy.She said they wore nothing except a sock at their dicks.So i was wondering like,how can it cover the whole p thing.ShaoJian explained,and we all laugh like ass.We were the noisy ones in the canteen,the few people in the canteen were looking at us like whatthehell.Then,suddenly we talked about pubic hair.Cause Hajar saw Ms Lim armpit hair , hah ! Then,they said guys who has armpit hair are sexy.I said,okay somehow,as long as its not like,rainforest.Then, haha ! Denise asked me, how the malay guys sunat? Whats the english word for that ah? I forgot. Then she said, 'Peel ah?' Then i was like, OHMG, if peel mati konyol sia the guys. HAHA ! Think what,banana uh? No,banana and P are two different things Denise.Here i go again,really got tp brainwash.Then while walking back home,i asked Hajar,'Eh,how you shave your pubic hair?You pull uh?' Then she say,she actually tried that before.Then i was laughing like ass,serious.Then she asks, "Wait,which pubic hair are you talking about?"
Haha ! I was asking about not the armpit one of course,so i was imagining how...OUCH.HAHA ! Okay,wth stop it sia Raudhah.
Then i said,i know how you shave,you use the tape. HAHA ! Thats more OUCHHH SIAAAA.

Then on Tuesday morning had a meeting.And from now onwards,all my Tuesday mornings are gonna be burn.Its okay,worth it.LOL.Im serious.Then yeah...Oh yes.Had my FnN practical test.I got the lowest, 13/20. But still, my cake taste deeeelicious.Im serious.What else uhh... Mother tongue lessons seriously cracks me up.
Then after school i met him.I said Sorry to him like a lot of times,so im gonna stop sorry to him.I love you Dear(: Thanks eh (: And yeah,i will do my best in my studies.If im not lazy. HAHA ! Okay,this laziness has to stop.Someone give me the lazy-killer . Okay (:

TODAY, is a Wednesday.The 2.4 trial today,was not counted.But to me,its not fair to those who tried their best to do well for the trial.I did not do my best cause i was supporting Nadiah but its okay,i dont mind.But then its really unfair lah.Then LiRuqin ah, next time just ignore Mr Poh.He dont believe you,next time just ignore . You arhh .
Okay,then help the class with the banner. I was very annoying and noisy. Cause,i really cant do my work without talking.So i was talking to Hilman,and he was ignoring me.Then i became sucha irrirtating girl.Then Mdm Rehana came and helped us.Then Amirul and i was fighting cause,he keep repeating about me holding hands with my dearest to mdm rehana, and i was like no, where got where got. Then Mdm Rehana said, ' Nevermind,10 years later i will get a invitation from Amirul and Raudhah.' I was like, EEEEUGHHH , that will sooooo not happen. Even if he is the last guy on Earth,i wont marry him.Ohmg. I would rather marry William Hungs then Amirul.HAHA (:
Serious (:

Okay,i got to chaw.I got a lot to say actually, but there will be a second post if im not tired lah.Cause,im having my SS test tomorrow,and i was slacking from the first lesson of SS til now.So,i got to u know.Revise and re-read everything like ass.
Okay lovelies got to go(: Love you all , mwaahh mwaahh mwahh ! HAHA (;
Flying kisses, catch it !

Okay... (:
Love you sayang (:

Please.

2010-02-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

Rain, please Stop.

15 rounds.

2010-02-21T17:05:00.003+08:00

Yes.I sweat.I feel better,yes.Im weird.

I skate from my place,to evergreen prim, woodlands mart and back to Circle Green for 15 rounds
without stoping. It was,awesome.Im so doing that again.Now, my legs are jelly,i've got 2 blisters on my feet.The sides of my feet by the way.
Next time i skate,i wanna skate to CWP, then make a turn to My place back.When im more confident of myself and my skating skills,i will skate to Sembawang Park. That will be like,months later. Yes,i fall down.Thanks to the stupid bangla who made me so paisey.
He knows i am behind him(His riding his ugly bike btw), i shouted excuse me,instead of moving to the sides, he turn his bike horizontally,and i crashed to him and he and i fall down.The paisey part is,i fall down on him. EEEUGH. Yucks,ptuiiiiiii. Then i get more agitated,I stood up quickly and glare at him.Then he do the sorry sign and cycle away. Its very, paisey and eeugh. Disgusting , i was cursing that bangla when i skate again and people were looking at me like some sort of mad woman who escaped from Minds.

And the other paisey part,i fall down.This time,luckily no one saw this.It was,ohmygod.
I fall on my lips. And it bled a little. Can see the scar you know! Scary. I fall down because i was reading a sms, i was skating under a void deck,and there's bumps. I knocked on one of the bumps and fall on my lips, it was painful yes. Like usual i stood quickly and skate away.
I wonder how im gonna brush my teeth.

Im sorry for what had happened , im sorry for hurting you.This is the final im saying sorry in my blog ONLY. Im sorry for being crazy and weird and, crazy. I cant promise you that it wont happen away, but i will try not to be mad again. OhMyGod, Raudhah is mad, she has Mad Cow Disease ! Okay,thats so fake,i dont okay. Dont run away from me.Im not a cow, im a human being. Human Beings can be Mad sometimes,or all the time.

I wanna bathe,i havent bathe since morning,im not kidding you. I only brushed my teeth and went skating. Ouch my feet,it hurts good. Okay,its not good im telling you. Especially the one on my lips.

Its raining,i hope Syg is safe. His riding on his bike to his home now,should be now. God,please protect him. I love him dearly.

2010-02-21T14:13:00.001+08:00

Came back home. Cause its raining,i dont want to paisey myself again.
Waiting till the rain slows down.
Then i shall go out again.
Rain,please stop.